Surprise!

Well since I had an interview the next day, last night I went into roommate's room (my guest room) to print my resume and grab an outfit from the closet. The room reeks of cat poop and there is a cat in the middle of the floor. Confronted roommate about cat in his room when I said no cat allowed. Bilbo will attack another cat going by his behavior looking out windows. He said the cat would be there only one night. I ask how long the cat has really been in his room. He replied, Since the dog came. He was so proud he hid the cat in his room from me for two weeks before I discovered it. He lets it out when I'm not there. She cat is terrified of Bilbo. Misty has taken to hiding under the couch from the dog to the point she won't come out to use her litterbox and pooping in a corner when I have an end table. I had newspaper there cause ferrets like to poop there. I have taken to placing food and water under the end table so she has nourishment.

As cold as this sounds, I hope roommate goes to jail just to get rid of this girlfriend and her pets. She is a manipulative witch and I don't care how much she was abused as child. Just because she uses some of her food stamps for us doesn't give her the right to take advantage of me. Oh yes, I know my roommate is taking advantage of me too. The only difference is I invited him into my home and I never invited her.

Happy Easter

Dog loves cats so gives Bilbo and Misty a sniff to get clawed in returned. I told my roommate my house was a lousy foster home for a dog but they have no other place to take it. Nobody in the girlfriend's family will take it in. Dog loves to watch the ferret but I worry ferret will get hurt cause she is blind and has lymphoma.

Received my house assessment that jumped $30,000. How does that happen in one year? What is that going to do to my insurance part of my mortgage payment? How do I prove my house is worth less? If I don't find a better job soon, I will have to sell my house cause I can't afford the payments. My pets are buried in the backyard so that will break my heart to leave them.

Bilbo got his teeth cleaning and vet had to pull a tooth out. Another $100 I had to pay. I can't contribute to Easter dinner and I always make a bunny cake. I have cake mixes, just not any frosting and no ingredients to make any. I can only afford bare necessities. No soda pop, no meat, no fresh fruit cause they cost too much. Alot of peanut butter snadwiches, pasta, and milk. I drink a lot water now. I also enjoy free food at work.

Did the live reading of the my Easter book on my social media. Only 2 people tuned in. I recorded it so other people could watch it later. think 7 people have watched it. Not the audience I was hoping for. I guess nobody is buying my book again this year. Sniff. Nobody bought Easter candles either. My roommate took me shopping and got some frosting for a bunny cake so made Bunny Cake for Easter dinner with my family.

The ferret and cats did the Easter Bunny Trap with a banana cause I had no carrots nor carrot cake. The Easter Bunny came in and stashed the banana in their basket. They rang the bell on a string so it woke up the animals. The visitor dog chased the Bunny out into the yard and it jumped the fence to get away. The poor ferret and cats didn't get a chance to steal extra chocolate eggs out of the Bunny's basket. Bad dog.

Easter dinner at my sister's house was good and they loved my Bunny cake. Happy Easter Everybody.

Which way is which?

Roommate's girlfriend who had been couch surfing for 9 months has managed to get a hotel room and taking the dog back. I wonder if roommate will move in with her. Not my problem anymore.

Well all that was just a lie. I'm a free kennel and free hotel for the girlfriend. Her dysfunctional family can't or won't take the dog in. Roommate hates me putting his girlfriend down and made me apologize to her. Fine, sorry. She uses food stamps to help us buy food so I have to put up with her. My cats are freaked out by the dog and Bilbo has scratched her nose when dog entered his space. Her crazy family refuses to take in this dog when I am a lousy free kennel and I'm real sorry I insulted her flaky family.

I discover this lie when girlfriend spent the night to ask why isn't she in her hotel room instead using my shower and using my laundry room? Oh, there's no hotel room. My bad.

Volcanic Explosion

Well, roommate just exploded like a volcano at me. He asked me to drive across town to a place he knows will sell him cigarettes being underage. It is also across the street from the hotel he used to live with a former coworker and career criminals next door. Last time we stopped here he viewed his old friend walking across the street and he ducked down to avoid been seen by him. Since he said he had been receiving death threats from his old friends he ratted on, I refused in concern for his safety (and me driving the car). He doesn't care if he gets beat up or shot (he once said his friend had a gun). Yeah, I do care having to watch the whole thing while driving the car he is in. Oh, someone said the couple isn't there anymore so it's safe. And someone could be lying to trap him. Besides he don't need them. It's a good time to stop smoking. He has vapors so he will be fine.

He blows up how he and his girlfriend try to please me. They buy food with her food stamps, clean my house, and do yard work, then one request from him is denied. What does it take to make me happy. Cigarettes keep him calm. I have angered him calling his friends lowlife when I am just as lowlife as them (except I have a job, car, and house, plus a mother to support me when unemployed because don't have an addiction). And why do I care about him so much when I am not his mother. To which I reply, I am not your mother, You are living in my house and I'm paying for everything. He continues on how he hates people trying to control him. I inform him he can leave the house whenever he wants. He stormed out saying he hates people caring about his health. He said he is walking 7 miles to get his cigarettes, shame on me. It was freezing cold outside and ground covered with snow. After a few minutes, he returned commenting how cold it is outside and he was not prepared for that. I least he calmed down.

Happy Palm Sunday

I hate video interviews. Something always goes wrong. Interviewer called my phone and did a phone interview instead. And I did my make-up for nothing. They rejected me. Did another phone interview but I think I are a fake company. Had a hotel guest try to go through an electric revolving door that doesn't work and roped off. After not succeeding in pushing the door, they went open another door.

Had a "only famous on social media" musician stay at my hotel. They were performing at a club somewhere. The security guard was a fan and got their photo with them. I don't have TikTok so have no idea who they were.

Set up a live event on my social media to do a reading of my Easter book hoping for more sales. I only sold 1 book to a coworker last year so hoping to do better this year. Started advertising my Easter egg candles. I am so stressed out from being broke, Boromir dying, and trying to find a new job that I decided not to make any Easter wreaths or gnomes this Easter. Nobody buys anything anyway.

Woke up bright eyed and bushy tailed one morning. I stretched my muscles thinking my body soreness is from lack of exercise. Then soaked my feet in a bath and filed my fingernails. I ate some breakfast and uploaded photos to my social media. Then BOOM, migraine strikes and have to lie down for hours. And have so many household chores to do. Made chicken and noodles to remember Boromir liked drinking the broth to burst into tears. Have to stop making chicken and noodles for a while.

Go through my email to see a package was delivered but never got it. I check the photo of the delivery and it is the wrong house. Called the company and they sent another one. Whew.

My roommate's girlfriend's brother went to jail and they need a place for his dog and girlfriend's cat. I said dog could stay a week, but no cat cause my Bilbo is agrressive towards cats. My cats hate the neighbor dogs barking at them and terrified of dogs. I tried to convince a coworker to take in the dog, but roommate said no.

Went out in my yard and flowers are coming up. At least I have something to look forward to. Bringing out the patio furniture.

Heaven help me

Yesterday my roommate was arrested for fraud, techically check forgery. When he was living with new friends he met living with a coworker in a cheap hotel and had a falling out with the coworker to move in with this couple. His friend found checks on a sidewalk and he helped his friends by depositing them in his bank account which is how the police traced them to him. Stupid, I know. He was freaking out cause he never had been arrested before. His girlfriend came over and contacted his family for help attaining a lawyer. They refused to help so he has a public defender. I drove him to the station to turn himself in. Girlfriend said to act tough. A friend bailed him out the next day and since I was sleeping, I didn't go pick him up so he took the bus home. I found his mugshot online and copied to to hang a sign with it saying Welcome Home. He and his girlfriend thought it was hilarious. He discovered the checks were not found on the sidewalk cause the owner of the checks is dead. Those checks were stolen and forged. He ratted on his gal friend and immediately was sent death threats from the guy friend with other friends asking where he was living. Now he is worried how he will get a job without a driver's license, little experience, no higher education, and now going to jail. Of course I can't sympathesize much since I've never been arrested.

Great idea

Roommate had a great idea. He and a friend will drive my car to do food delivery. Unsure if it was expected that I drive or his friend. I replied that would alter my car insurance to drive for business purposes. I said no. He refused to apply at my hotel for Banquets convinced he won't get hired after he was dismissed from our hotel as a security guard he he was caught in the Presidential Suite by a couple still in their wedding clothes I had to downgrade to Governor's Suite.

I found out rommate's girlfriend has lost custody of her son. She can't provide for him so the father was given custody. Can't say I was surprised. She has an unstable job and bouncing between friends to spend the night. She has trouble paying for 2 storage units so how can she pay a security deposit and first month rent to a landlord. Then roommate lost his job trying to help her. What did they expect?

Having a bad day

While eating in the living room, roommate gets woken by a phone call. He freaks cause he is being arrested for fraud. When he had a falling out with his coworker living in the hotel room with him, he went to live with the couple next door. Lady shaved his head to the skin and he was so embarrassed he wore a baseball hat for weeks. Well, one of them found checks on the sidewalk and he helped cash them by depositing them in his account. This is how the police traced them to him. He says he felt he had no choice cause at the time he was unemployed and dependent on their charity. Later, they kicked him out. He called his girlfriend who ordered him to call his family to help with attaining a lawyer. They refused to help. I drove him to the police station to turn himself in. Then dropped off the girlfriend across town. I have no money to bail him out. He called a friend who did. He was bailed out by a friend the next day. I found his photo online and printed it to make a Welcome Home sign. He and his girlfriend thought it hilarious. He called me to pick him up but I was sleeping so he took the bus. Apparently, the checks belong to a dead person so they were not found on the sidewalk. He is worried for his future. No driver's license, little experience, been fired twice, and with a conviction, who will hire him? He says he has never been arrested before and completely terrified what would happen. Girlfriend said to act tough and don't cry. He survived and squealed on the lady who he saw at the jail.

Goodbye Boromir

Received a job rejection via text message but no name or company mentioned so I have no idea who is rejecting me. I let the animals sniff Boromir so they understand he is gone. Poor Luthien sniffed him all over, walked around the house, returned to sniff him again, walked around the house again, sniffed him a third time, and finally snuggled in a bag to take a nap. I buried Boromir in the backyard under a concrete bench he loved getting under. My roommate made a cross and nameplate for him. That was so sweet of him. I placed a red carnation on top. Poor Luthien started sleeping in spots where Boromir slept. She misses him.

Then I notice the house is cold. Had to call a furnace repair guy and spend more money I don't have to keep my pipes from freezing. Since it is outside normal business hours cause it's a Saturday, I have to pay an extra $125 plus parts and labor. He tells me my furnace is fine, just needs to change the filter. My problem is someone switched off the circuit breaker to the furnace. That was my roommate. He also said my capacitor is failing so he replaced that. Final bill wasn't that bad. The bad part is my roommate lost his job after 3 weeks cause a coworker got upset he used a racial slur. He was so happy working again and management wanted to promote him to shift lead. Now he is broke and unemployed. I'm just broke and in debt.

RIP Boromir

My roommate called me at work stating my ferret is dead. He was wrestling with the cats and fell down the stairs. After the tumble, he was alive but barely moving. Roommate said it was the first time he saw both cats at the same time. My roommate was with him when he passed. He went into full panic attack demanding I come home right away. I called for security to watch my counter while I went home to find out what happened. I held my furbaby and blew into his nose. No noise. I opened his mouth and his tongue and gums were all red. I closed his mouth and no movement. I moved his paws and no movement. I cried realizing he is really gone for good. My roommate hugged me. I wrapped Boromir in a dish towel and went back to work. The restaurant manager was on the phone with my supervisor trying to check a couple into the hotel. I explained my ferret wrestling with the cats fell down the stairs and we think he died from internal bleeding or a brain hemorrhage. No injuries on the outside that I could see. Ferrets are so fragile. I put my purse back into my locker and checked the couple in. I apologized for making them wait so long. Goodbye my sweet boy.

Happy St. Patrick's Day

Had a phone interview and praying hard I get the job. Then when chatting on my interview for five minutes, my landline phone rings, my cell phone rings, and the landline phone rings again. Thinking it was a scammer I look at the caller ID. It was a restaurant I applied at for Birthday Coordinator a long time ago. Perfect timing. Oh well, no message left so no return call.

Got the appointment made for my cats annual vaccinations. $134 each. Plus my accounting software and online store want money and my cards are maxed out. My pets are top priority I have to save for. So to raise funds I advertised green candles for St Patrick's Day as 10% off on my 2nd online shop since first one is suspended from non-payment. Next my accounting software suspended me for non-payment. Then after a week and still no sales, I shut down my 2nd online shop. The only way to get my candles, wax melts, and home decorations is directly speaking to me. One online shop has a free option subscription so will use that for the direct sales. The soy wax candles I made last year are turning white so have been burning them myself. Apparently soy wax only lasts a year or two. Great when I can't sell candles or wax melts.

Had a drunk hotel guest harrassing my female security guards by inviting them to his room when they keep rejecting him. I tried to intervene stating they are not allowed in his room cause it's against the rules and they will be fired. He brushed me off. One guard hid in the back office. He continued to go back upstairs and come back down to follow them around the hotel. I offered to call the police since employers can get sued if they do nothing to stop the sexual harrassment, even from guests. Eventually he stopped coming downstairs so didn't call the police.

Made a Leprechaun gnome to sell for St Patrick's Day. I use a toilet paper tube wrapped in yarn for the hat and attached the yarn beard and wood bead nose. I got black ribbon and jeweled gold ribbon for the buckle. I twisted a green pipe cleaner for a shamrock and attached a rose to the hat. It was so cute and hoped to sell at least one.

Had snow fall again. Probably the last until next winter. Found an ant in my kitchen, it went squish. Finally heard from a gym I interviewed at a month ago and got rejected. Received another rejection from a high school I applied at 2 months ago but never interviewed with.

Made payments for the accounting software and 1st online shop so was ready sell items for St. Patrick's Day offering 10% off all green, gold, and amber candle jars and tins. Then 3 days before the holiday and no orders for anything, I gave my Leprechaun gnome to my Mom. We visited her friend in the nursing home part of the same building Mom is in (she's in assisted living). She also needs hearing aids. Received the acceptance letter for a farmers market I applied at for this summer. I had to tell them that I entered credit counseling and can no longer afford to sell at their farmers market. That broke my heart. I was hoping a different farmers market would yield better results.

Set up a video interview. Started a Gofundme page for my Bilbo's teeth cleaning next month for gingivitis. I pray he doesn't need a tooth pulled, who knows what that will cost. I hate begging strangers for money, but I am desperate. At least Misty's teeth were okay. I know why this happened to these cats and not my other cats who never had their teeth pulled out. The teeth cleaner I put in their drinking water stopped being made during Covid and never returned. I tried other kinds but cats never liked them. Who thought up Green Tea flavor for cats? I finally found a tuna flavor one that they liked but the tarter built up too much trying to find one they liked. Sigh. At least I got the money I needed in 2 days from 2 donors. I think I'm going to cry.

The rain we were getting in the daytime turned into snow in the evening. Wild ride driving to work tonight.

Trying and trying to go nowhere

Rommate got tired of watching videos to learn virtual wholesaling (there's 80 hours). I told him to figure out what he does best and figure out a way to get paid for it. So he decides on woodworking and I bought some sandpaper for him. He grabbed some broken branches and works all day trying to carve out spoons to sell. He asked me to teach him how to make soap when I make candles. When I made a candle, he didn't pay attention so not really interested in that. Just wants easy money that he can do. He carves that wood with my tools until his hands get sore. He took a break and called his friend he worked with at a fast food place. He was a cook there before leaving to do the security guard thing. His friend said he could be a shift manager. Here's hoping.

Oh boy, why me

Spoke to roommate about paying rent since he is raising my water and electric bills. He agreed once he pays off the storage unit his things are in and pay back some friends, he can give me some money. Right after I get home, he calls me to pick him up. He was fired for using a racial slur that upset a biracial coworker who complained to human resources. He was more insulted the coworker called him white, when he is Mexican. Says his grandma is Guatemalan.

Now that roommate can't get a job from the way he was fired, he decided to be self employed. He wants to mow lawns for people using my lawn mower. I said he can use my printer to print some fliers to give my neighbors.

His girlfriend got him excited about virtual wholesaling. She did it for years before her divorce, but apparently it didn't stop her from falling for a rental house scam. Doesn't she not know how to look up property records online for free? Right now she works for a security firm as roommate suggested cause that's what he was doing at the time.

Happy Birthday Luthien

I finally bit the bullet and got credit counseling. I haven't sold a single candle since January and I bought supplies to make Easter decorations to sell. I hope I sell something soon or I will have to close my shop. I maxed out all my credit cards and can't pay minimum payments anymore. I told my family I didn't know what to do anymore. If I declare bankruptcy, who is going to hire me? I didn't sell any wreaths or gnomes for Valentine's Day. I have two interviews and pray for a better paying job I can't see to get either. I have been trying to get a new job for seven months now, plus run a business, and work a full time job. I am so stressed out and tired that I can't function. Then I have a roommate to take care of. Went to the grocery store and my credit card declined so couldn't get cupcakes for Luthien's birthday. I thought I had room on my card but a autopay took some money so didn't have enough left. My roommate ended up paying for the cupcakes when we went out shopping.

Celebrated Luthien's 7th Birthday. Old lady ferret. She and Boromir loved the frosting on the cupcakes. I shared a cupcake with my roommate. Cats got catnip.

More requests

Heard at work a new engineer is in jail for assault while intoxicated. He was fired. Too bad, he seemed so quiet. Plus the new sales coordinator they hired instead of promoting me is back in jail for violating their parole. Also fired. Then they hired a new sales coordinator. I have 2 interviews this week.

To be supervisor, roommate has to have a driver's license that he doesn't have. He asked me to teach him to drive. Nervous about him driving my fairly new SUV my Mom bought for me. She will not buy me a new one if he crashes it. Plus, what will that do to my car insurance to have a 19-year-old man added on. I said no. I suggested a driving school for adults.

Just another day in paradise

Installed my very first doorbell camera. I had a heck of a time figuring out the diretions. Received help from my roommate's girlfriend what to do to connect it to my phone. It snowed 5.6 inches and Boromir has stopped loving the snow so much. He walks around, digs around, and comes back inside. Guess he is getting old too. Still jumps on Bilbo that Bilbo dislikes and bumps him off. Boromir just wants to play.

Had nightmare guests at the hotel (high school athletic teams hear for a tournament) who pushed my acting skills to the limit. After destroying my hotel, making us run out of towels, blankets, and pillows, upsetting guests trying to sleep by running up an down the halls, treating my coworkers like garbage, drunk parents threatening to beat up my security guard when asked to control their kids, and crank calls from the emergency phones by the elevator: I smile, check them out, offer a receipt, and tell them to have a great day. Customer may always be right, but I hate the nasty ones and glad to see them leave.

Had an interview at a church for office manager that I would love do. I would do the bulletins and news letters, make event arrangements, count and deposit offerings, and welcome new members to the church. I haven't joined a church since moved away from my home church. Maybe I could join this one. Later I was told I was the only candiadate who showed up for their interview, but they still wouldn't give me the job. They have to interview more candiadates before making a decision. I take that as a rejection. If they wanted me, they would have hired me.

Got a security guard fired. Their coworker mentioned they were asleep in a chair at the restaurant. One thing my hotel does not tolerate is sleeping on the job. So I shook the chair they were in to wake them up. I announced I needed receipts delivered. I reported this misbehavior to my manager who complained to the contracted company who dismissed from working our hotel. Found out from the coworker they didn't want to work with another client so they were released from employment. Apparently, they were angry with me for reporting them. Excuse me, sleeping on the job and they expected not to report that. If I am not allowed to sleep then neither are they.

Came in work one day to find a plastic mouse in the office. Apparently the kitchen staff tried to prank the waitstaff. I was told it didn't end well.

Decided to do a reading of my Easter book in hope of more sales. Last year I sold one book to my coworker. I got it out in bookstores as an ebook, but nobody ever buys it. I try.

Interesting conversation

Roommate asked if his girlfriend could stay another night when she had been here for 2 nights. She was asleep at the moment. No, she wasn't. She was wide awake and I demanded she leave cause has been here long enough. My house is not a free hotel for his homeless friends. I received a lecture after I dropped her off downtown near a place one of her friends lives. Roommate was upset that his girlfriend believes I don't like her. Well, that would be accurate. I don't like her or trust her. She is ruled by her anxiety, plus using him and me. I am under no obligation to be friends with her. I think she is manipulative as well as this conversation. Even further he is upset I called his friends lowlife. They are people he cares about. If they are lowlife then so is he. From years of dealing with customers and nieces and nephew for years, I know when I am being played. If I don't kick her out, she will never leave. My kindness has limits and he finding this out. I care about my roommate without social connections to house him until he gets back onto his feet. This kindness doesn't include his girlfriend or friends. He said my judment of people effects how much I care about them. I call it self-preservation. I don't like being used.

His train wreck girlfriend full of bad decisions and unreliable friends is incapable of taking care of herself and he feels a need to take care of her to make up for her bad relationships. But he can't do that depending on my charity.

Naughty coworker

Coworker who claims to be homeless was caught in an out of order room by an engineer along with her boyfriend, daughter, and daughter's boyfriend. She was suspended 3 days and had a meeting to decide if she kept her job. At the meeting, she won them over and allowed to stay in a hotel room for a week.

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day. I work as usual. Brought in heart cakes for my coworkers to eat. They seem to get demanding about them. Made some heart sugar cookies too. Gave cats some catnip and ferrets got pink cupcakes that were in Boromir's birthday box. Received my doorbell cameras. Will install my next day off.

Happy Birthday Boromir

My ferret Boromir turned 6 years old today. Got him cupcakes from the grocery store. He loves whipped frosting but doesn't like my version. Happy Birthday Baby! No presents other than a cup of cocoa. He has enough toys.