The Adventures of Being Me

(Frustrated scream) Get a message to call a manager from a HR Assistant job I applied for. Called the manager thinking they wanted to set up a time to come in for interview. They answer and start a phone interview immediately without any preparation. Then after 3 questions, they will let know in a few days. Didn't set an in person interview. Was my voice too high? Was $16 an hour too much for them? Sigh. But at least, today's interview with the accountant and other hotel accountant went well and I get to talk to the corporate Director of Finance tomorrow. X fingers.

Coworkers this morning: How was your evening? Me: I hate people, but I do it with a smile.

Got a security guard flirting with me. He even bought a few of my beaded pens and a keychain. He said he was hoping to move into his own place soon. I asked where he was living now. He said he was living in a homeless shelter. Feels like jail and food is terrible. He has to sleep on a street bench cause they don't allow sleeping in the daytime, but he works nights. Feel a little guilty taking his money when he has no home. But then he can resell them too.

Funny. I have a job interview next week at my hotel for accounting assistant. The job would include my hotel plus another hotel in West Des Moines. I probably won't get the job cause then they would have to replace me as night auditor, just like not getting the sales coordinator job last fall. Night auditors are next to impossible to replace.

Sold out of my Valentine Beaded Bracelets, Pens, and Keychains with coworkers still wanting one so finished making new items with fresh supplies. These are for Easter instead of Valentine's Day. Yes, all the heart beads are in storage for next year. People love my new products. Sold a few bracelets. Put up the new items for sale on my social media so relatives and friends can buy them. Have one housekeeper wanting to get a large order of bracelets, but never has money to pay for them. She grabbed my last 2 keychains, but a dollar short (technically $1.05 cause she was a nickel short in her coins payment) so hopefully someday she will hand it over. I told her I got fresh supplies, but she keeps putting off paying for them. Yeah, either buy them or don't buy them but don't jerk me around. It's been a week since Valentine's Day and she still hasn't paid the dollar she owes. Went to the grocery store and found a sparrow flying around. It flew away when I got too ...

Pretty quiet tonight. Today's drama was a coworker came in early because a wedding was supposed to have bar service. I heard the reception music in the ballroom. Then I heard the waterfall had to be turned off during the atrium ceremony so guests could hear the vows. Yes, that waterfall makes a lot of noise. Had a quiet night at the hotel. Just the way I like it. Roommate said his girlfriend texted him and was coming over. Never came, but at least she is communicating again.

Celbrated sister's birthday with restaurant lunch then cake with ice cream at her house. My brother and wife came with our mother. I missed lunch, but came for cake and ice cream. I gave my sister one of my beaded pens as a gift. Naturally everyone else wanted a freebie, but I explained it's not their birthday. They have to pay for them. Stayed to watch a movie. Had a good conversation with sister. Car buddy still text messaging me. Now he's apologizing. Must be the therapist getting to him. He didn't expect forgiveness cause he didn't deserve. He treated us badly and doesn't blame roommate for leaving him. He blames himself for being toxic. For weeks he had been stayign roommate was the toxic one. Naturally roommate always asked for validation from me if he was being unreasonable. Half the time I didn't know what they were fighting about so couldn't really answer. I told him that I forgave him, but couldn't speak for roommate. He said his therapi...

Sister turns 55 today. We are getting together with family on Sunday for lunch. Selling beaded pens, keychains, and bracelets at work. I had no idea they would be so popular. I got Easter beads my coworkers adore. Once these are sold, I cant buy more supplies cause I need to save my money to repair my car. I hit a light pole so need new front bumper. I have no money which is why I am declaring bankuptcy. I will definately know when paperwork is filed when all the credit card phone calls cease. They have to cease when file petition to declare bankruptcy. Car buddy is still text messaging me. Now it's "Is roommate done being mad so I can move back in?". Roommate is so much happier without him. He said he doesn't want to be his partner in crime cause he is so needy and he doens't want to take care of him emotional. He sounds like my Mom, very emotionally draining. Told him roommate got a new job and doing well. Car buddy said he got a factory job. He isn't in ...

Car buddy is still text messaging me. I refuse to block him since he has still has to remove his mattress from my basement so need that line of communication open. Besides, if he doesn't text me then he sends texts to other roommate friends to relay to him which upsets my roommate. I told roommate that it resembled me separating from my Mom who clung to me for dear life. I love my Mom, I care about my Mom, but I don't love her so much that she gets to control every aspect of my life. Boundaries need to be made. He said for weeks his friends was so clinging and always wanted needed to be around him. He would come into the living room where I was sitting to hang out. He would leave their room to ask if he was coming back soon which upset roommate. Can't he hang out with the home owner for a while without him? Car buddy texted his started seeing a therapist to make his relationship stronger. He said he can walk away as his therapist taught him how. Therapist also said he is au...

Well car buddy laid off the texting a couple and back at it saying his grandma is in the hospital and wants prayers, plus have a phone call with roommate. Roommate replied how that woman was a b*tch to him and car buddy so he don't care if she lives or dies from her blood clot. He is just trying to weasel his way back into his life and my house. I replied roommate is sorry his grandma was in the hospital, but no phone call cause he needs to learn to handle problems on his own. He didn't to discuss his grandma, just gettign his things. Roommate said he didn't want to be in the house when he came to get his things. I had to realy the message from roommate to stop trying to contact him. Roomate started his first day at the coffee shop. Girlfriend called in family emergecy so wasn't there. He likes his new boss and says he's cool. Drama occurred when boss discovered a deposit was missing from the safe. The people working the night before were the girlfriend and anoth...

Car buddy got a new phone right before he was kicked out to the food delivery again. Apparently his broke. With the new phone, he has been sendign roommate text messages again begging to come back until roommate blocked him again. Friendship is over. I say he is not allowed back in other than collect his belongings, but not overnight. They can't go 2 whole days without fighting and car buddy getting kicked out. Once he is blocked again, I get the messages to relay. I had to say again roommate is refusing to read the messages. Roommate is so happy he starts a job and workign with his girlfriend so they can get closer. He commented how she is nervous about their relationship. I explained they were both on the rebound and she is probably wondering "Will this work out or another relationship that ends badly". He saw my point. She is insecure right now. Sold all my beaded items for Valentine's Day so buying more supplies. Start working on St Pat's Day or Easter ite...

Hooray! Roommate was hired at the coffee shop interview and starts Tuesday. He is so happy to be working again. It drives him crazy to stare at walls all day. He even wants to grocery store with me just to get out of the house. Let's all pray he keeps this job for a while. I told him he and car buddy need to stop tryign to help each other and just focus on themselves. I suggested roommate focus on a getting a job, paying off his court fines, get his guard card back with change in case status, and be the security guard he wants to be. I even suggested applying for night auditor jobs since he likes to work overnight. Nobody wants those hours so standards are lower and pay is higher. All he would do is babysit a hotel and print reports. Not hard. Happy New Year. Year of the Wood Dragon.

Oh my, I missed excitement at work. Heard the hotel had another flood from a pipe burst. Soaked guest rooms from 6th floor to the lobby floor. Don't worry, it was rapidly fixed. Roommate had an interview where his current girlfriend works at a coffee shop. Yes, I will take favortism if it gets him a job. Car buddy roommate is still alive and send lengthy text messages roommates calls novels. He finally had enough of his whine fest and blocked him. Which makes car buddy text message me to relay to my roommate.

I come home from work and find the back door open plus kitchen light on. I count cats and everyone is inside. While checking for Misty under the couch, I notice a leg on my ottoman is screwed off. I can't get it screwed back on. I messaged the guys asking what was going on. Buddy didn't know cause he just woke up. I go to sleep to wake up to them fighting again. I don't know why but buddy is being kicked out again. He complained roommate is leaving him out in the cold and wants his gifts back. Roommate complains this buddy won't leave easily. He has no place to go so of course he doesn't want to leave. Roommate later confessed it was him who failed to lock the door so the wind blew it open. He screwed the leg on ottoman back on. We agree buddy can come collect his belongings but no longer allowed to stay here. While checking my social media hours later, buddy is calling me and I failed to answer the phone. He starts texting me cause roommate has blocked him. I relay...

Had an interesting session today with the therapist. Had a drama with getting car fixed and deductible will wipe out my IRA completely. I decided to take pictures and get an estimate from adjustor that way. I got the estimate from the car insurance today. I need to save for the deductible part. I need new glasses and get teeth cleaned since I got my insurance back. I went to church with brother and sister-in-law and next time will join their Bible Study. He was unhappy roommate not only came home but brought buddy plus buddy's 2 cats to live in my house without asking if that was alright with me. Cats will be eating my cat food and using my litterbox. I did tell buddy he was welcome to stay until he figures out his next move. After being kicked out last night, buddy was back in the house sleeping in the guest room this morning. He was unhappy about all their fights and agrees buddy needs to go. He said I need to put up boundaries with my roommate by charging him for rides, friend ...

Well today, I tell car buddy that he was welcome to stay here until he is figures out his next move. Roommate complained his friends tell him that I give them the "stink eye" so I felt a need to say something. Hours later, another fight breaks out and car buddy is being kicked out again. Car buddy wants all his gifts back and asks me to to call the police when roommate threatens to throw him out the window if he doesn't stop raising his voice. They constantly drag me into the argument. Yeah, you both interrupt each other trying to repond to the other accusations. I talk it over with roommate. I see a cycle of abuse where the buddy buys beer, they play video games, and they are happy and drunk. Then the tension builds and another fight breaks and buddy is asked to leave again. Then he is let back in the house until the next fight. Roommate wants to help him but he has his own issues to deal with. I tell him they need stop trying to help each other and just work on themselv...

Well, that was fun. Went to the car inspection and it's not an inspection. It's an inspect, get approval from insurance to do repair without a word spoken to me about it, and I get a car rental while I wait to find out what this will cost me (I have a deductibleI have to pay). Well, car rental refused my prepaid card and I don't have the credit card required for the deposit. Told the body shop to cancel the repair. They were just about to start taking pictures. Have to call car insurance now. Asked roommate what went wrong with the new opportity. Buddy's mom lived in a trailer park and they shared a room. There was no job. He helped out on a few things for free. The mom borrowed buddy's car for 8 hours visiting somebody not use it to get to a job. Called her a whore for free who was worse than his ex-girlfriend. Roommate's girlfriend encouraged him to come back. I was certainly missing him and not be mad at him. Girlfriend liked my beaded items and wants to b...

Roommate called me at 2 Am when I was doing the audit at my hotel job that he needs me to pick him up. Not now of course, but later today. OK. He gave me the address that was 3 hours away. I ask what went wrong cause he was so hopeful to work and have a place to stay. He will tell me later. The buddy's mom is putting buddy in a bad spot where he is being forced to give up his 2 cats. They share a room in a trailer that is in a trailer park going by the address I looked up. After work, I go to brother's church in my work clothes. Can't stay for Bible study cause I need sleep to go pick up roommate and be back home to get to work. Hug good-bye. Wake up at home and roommate messaged that buddy will be bringing him home. And he is bringing buddy's cats to live in my house. It's the least he can do for him. The cats will stay in his room instead of roaming the house. They arrive and then go get roommate's girlfriend to spend the night. I show the girlfriend my...

Not much happening at my house. I sit alone and pet the cats in a daze. Doing my therapist homework connecting with people. He thought my home church would be a good place to start to meet people so I am not longing for Austin by myself. I was once close to my siblings until they got too busy taking care of our Mom plus nonstop grudges where they give me the silent treatment. Text messaged my work friends, sister and brother. Set up with brother to visit his church on Sunday. I'm not sure if he wants me there, but I'm coming. Asked sister to bake sugar cookies with her and I have heart cookie cutters we can use. Texted 2 coworkers to have dinner together or bar hopping and they answered back they would be open to that.