The Adventures of Being Me

As I lie down in my bed drifting off to sleep I envision a spirit of a wolf in front of me. It begins to snarl and snap at me with its jaws. Finally it lunges in for the killer neck bite with its paws wrapping around my shoulders to hold me down. I know how the deer feels at this moment. Then the vision changes to me sitting in the back of a movie theater with a man having his arms wrapped around my shoulders and kissing my neck. Wish I could see his face but no, I just feel him. Then a cat jumps on the bed and paws my face. I'm back in my room again.

Having one heck of a winter. Rain in the morning, snow in the afternoon. Then predicted to be in 50's tomorrow so snow will be gone soon. Happy Ferrets have to enjoy the snow while they can. Ferrets love playing in the snow. They dig around and walk around with noses to the ground so they look like a snow plow. Last snowfall one ferret leaped in the air with joy and got one photo with all 4 paws off the ground. Cats hate wet paws so no enjoyment for them. Such as life.

Oh, my love My darling I hunger for your touch a long lonely time And time goes by so slowly And time can do so much Are you still mine? I need your love I need your love Godspeed your love to me .......................... Lonely rivers flow to the sea to the sea To the open arms to the sea Lonely rivers sigh wait for me, wait for me I'll be coming home Wait for me ..................... Oh my love My darling I hunger for your touch a long lonely time And time goes by so slowly And time can do so much Are you still mine? I need your love I need your love Godspeed your love to me

Funny. Just had a vison of angel fluttering its wings in front of me in my living room and in the company of a boy telling me he is coming and to wait for Daddy. Yeah, whatever. Been dreaming of giving birth since last July and have yet to meet a man to take me on date. Just another stupid dream that won't come true as usual. Please God make these dreams stop. I'm getting tired of them. I thought writing them down would make them stop, but alas, they don't stop. I'm a loss what to do. Angels in my dreams tell me to have faith and do not despair. But, that it is very hard to have faith and not despair when almost everybody abandons me whenever I simply need a friend who cares about me. I'm sure almost everybody only wants good news and hear fascinating stories of my adventures in life, then wonder why I'm silent. Ok, I'm done ranting. Good night.

Had a beautiful dream today. I stood at an alter in a long sleeved wedding dress and handsome blond man in a tuxedo stood beside me. It was time for our wedding vows. I said: I once met a new kid at the end of 5th grade and all girls cried, "He's so cute". You were always more than a cute face to me. You were my best friend. You stood up for me. You sat next to me when no one else would. You taught me to be strong and stand up for myself. It's your own fault I fell in love you in the 6th grade and never stopped. How can I not love you when you are so sweet to me? I know why I stand here today, because I am the one girl who asks, "What do you want?" instead of thinking only of myself. I'm the one girl who has seen your bad side, your good side, and everything in between. And I'm still here ready to commit myself to spend the rest of my life with you. Many jealous girls have told me you don't really have feelings for me. I remember you once to...

Happy Valentine's Day everybody. Hope you are having a good one. Spent of my day at work. I have a cold so didn't smell anyone's flowers. I saw someone had roses on their desk. Came home to the furbabies and gave extra treats plus salmon water from the can to make myself some salmon patties. My Mom called to say Thank you for the heart shaped hamburger pizza and chocolate brownies I had delivered from Pizza Hut. When I told her a delivery was coming to make sure she would be there, she thought I was bringing it. Sorry, my lunch break is not that long. She said today she dressed in red with her choir wearing paper roses to sing to the Memory Care part of her Senior Living Residence. So now I sit on my sofa with 2 cats on my lap. Life is good, I have cheese popcorn. My cats like to lick the cheese off my fingers. Ferrets crawled up to see what that cheesy smell was about. One ferret likes powdered cheese and the other likes cheese sauce. But ferrets jumped down viewing th...

Looked into the sky to see the lunar eclipse. Not much of an eclipse, it was grayish. Couldn't see the moon rise with buildings and trees in the way. Couldn't see any stars cause of the city lights. The only ones I see are straight above me. Wished I lived in the country or even a small town so I could see the stars. And have a telescope to see the green comet the naked eye can't see. Have to wait for my Mom to die in 10-20 years before I have money to buy a house away from the city. By then, I will be counting the days until retirement. Oh well, that's how the cookie crumbles. My dream home would have a large kitchen with an island, Master bedroom with a walk in closet, and a porch or deck to hostess family gatherings on. Naturally it needs a spare bedroom so faraway family could visit a few days.

We a few inches of snow just deep enough for the ferrets to swim in it. My older ferret was so happy she was leaping in excitement. My baby ferret turning 1 year old next month experienced her first real snowfall that was more than an inch that melted hours later. I have happy ferrets here,until the snow melts.

My brain is working overtime giving me wacky dreams. Had a first date dream. Meet a man at McDonald's and given roses. He seems happy to meet me. He has read some of my web journal and enjoyed my wedding and giving birth dreams. Maybe they will happen. Yeah, we'll see. Then another man comes to sit down with us looking 20ish. This is his son. Awkward. More awkward is looking at old photos of his life and I'm in a few of them. After we finish our meal, my date and I go to the movies. To complete this dream, we go to a hotel room with 2 beds. 2nd bed is for the 20ish son. My date hypnotizes me swinging a necklace above me as I am lying on a bed. He tries hard to get me to remember something and I wake up when claps his hands. I'm all woozy so cuddle on the bed watching TV. The 20ish son comes to the room with his brothers and sisters so eager to meet me. The kids leave after a while and my date gets his dry hump I promised him (After a week of phone calls, I still was...

My VITA location opened for the first day and we had a huge line that we had to turn people away. Yeah, well, it's not like everybody's refund will be received the next day so still plenty of time to file your return. My professor gave me people with a million questions so they could concentrate on the other tax preparers who were enduring their first rodeo (this is my rodeo #4). Totally exhausted by the end of the night. Busy at work doing menial and mundane data entry tasks to help out another section. We did so well last month that we ran out of work to do. Let's just say these tasks are so easy my brain is falling asleep. Anyway, Happy Groundhog Day.