Jealous Roommate

Apparently my Amazon packages upset my roommate. I'm spending too much money on Amazon. I have a subscription for Prime, so of course I want to use it for free shipping. He says it's a big waste of money when I can go to a store and get the same things. Yes, but often it's cheaper on Amazon. Then today, he brings in one of my packages and tells me he is jealous of all the packages I got from Amazon cause he doesn't get much mail. Yeah, today's package was cat kibble food and teeth cleaner for pet's water that saved me a trip to Petsmart. Big spender.

Roommate Temper Tantrum

Wow, roommate had one of his temper tantrums over an open door when I let cats out in early morning. Won't go into all details of his complaints (which I replied, If I'm so unbearable then leave). But he is still very upset about my Mom's eulogy (she died last year) cause I said nice things about her like I loved her, when she was a manipulative and violent bipolar control freak during my childhood. Now he refuses to believe me that she was abusive when I don't hate her. Well a lot things happened since my childhood. And we got along much better when I was on my own and put up boundaries so she eventually let go trying to control every aspect of my life. It greatly upset her that nobody needed her anymore. It took many years for me to forgive her (around my 30's I let go of the anger and healed). Then I got into financial trouble and she gave me money to keep me from from being homeless. Not from kindness, but from unwilling to explain to people that her daughter was homeless. Let me say my siblings and I failed to cry much at the funeral. Her death felt more like relief we can stop taking care of her than sadness that she was gone.

Then he goes off how I'm evil cause I said once I wanted her to die to get her money. Um, no, I don't recall saying that. If I said something like that it was from watching her suffer. She had heart issues for years and health was failign for months. She couldn't walk when I visited during Christmas 2 months before she died. She had to eat puree foods from food getting stuck in esophagus. Last time I visited her, I ended up feeding her cause she was too weak to lift the spoon to her mouth. Did he expect trash her in my eulogy being read to her sisters and cousins? Well siblings were afraid I would and my sister kept telling me not to do it cause I will cry (which I didn't and was a complete statue). I explained that would be inappropriate to do. I stated facts on how my parents met, her clubs and charity work, and one thing she passed on to her daughters was baking from scatch. I didn't think I said anything about loving her. Since then, had many dreams of of my Mom talking to me and suddenly wake up yelling "Mommy" and gasping for air like an anxiety attack. She drove me crazy, but was also the one person who calmed me down. I understand he has problems with his own controlling mom who abandoned him and hasn't spoken to her for years. I healed from that maybe he will heal to.

Day with Great-Nieces

My sister is watching her granddaughters for a week and broguht them over for a day trip the science center. We had lunch with my brother, his wife, and my other sister before going over. Girls had so much fun. We split in teams following one great-niece as they played around with the science experiments. Made a paper rocket. I enjoyed the planterium shows. They enjoyed watching a snapping turtle get fed. Bought souviniers and snacks in the gift shop. Wonderful day.

RIP Sam Neill

RIP Sam Neill. I remember him playing Cardinal Wolsey in The Tudors, Merlin in Merlin, and Vasily in Hunt for Red October.

Fun Day

Went to the beach today at a city park lake. The water was warm and sun was hot. Got bit by a fish. Ate some ice cream (refreshment stand sells soft serve).

Birthday Party

Celebrated my aunts' birthday today. We had dinner at a restaurant and then went an aunt's church for cake and ice cream.

RIP Bonnie Tyler

RIP Bonnie Tyler. I loved her music. My favorite was "Total Eclipse of the Heart".

Happy 4th of July

Happy 250th Birthday America. I enjoyed a local parade and visited my sister's home. Skipped the fireworks since saw them last night. I set off fireworks with my roommates in the driveway. Sparklers remind me of my childhood at my aunt's yard that was across the street from the ball field they set off the fireworks. Then years later they changed the location and lost prime real estate. Just as well since they moved to their lake cabin in another state.

Brought the dogs along. I brought a picnic blanket for them to relax on and they preferred the wet grass.

Symphony Concert and Fireworks

1st time going to City Symphony followed by fireworks. Prelude guitar and violin sang country songs. Nice big crowd at the capitol building where the concert takes place. It was broadcasted on public TV.

Lawn Watering Ban Ends

The water department called off the lawn watering ban from too many nitrates. Guess all the rain chnaged the nitrate levels.

I opened the door for dogs to pee while raining outside. They refused to go out, in fact ready to rush out the door cats stayed inside. Got the umbrella and called them outside to pee. They were afraid of the umbrella. Hopefully they won't go on the floor, but I am sure they will. I took them out later when not raining so hard. They did their pee.