Wednesday, September 28, 2016

Remember September


Had a good month. Celebrated my 41st birthday (tell nobody) at a pizza place with a buffet. Brother-in-law requested the TV in the place play a certain ball game. He loves football. Mom took me to the car wash cause she finally got tired of looking at my dusty dashboard. Had the car 16 years and never clean the inside so I wonder why this dust bothered her all of a sudden. Sister got me a cake with cupcakes surrounding the larger center cake. It was covered in fondant pieces which I had to explain to niece they were edible (though taste not so good). Had a good birthday.

Working hard at my new job and signed up for benefits when I could. After 5 months without any insurance whatsoever, I finally got my insurance card in the mail to do a happy dance. Manager said she was interviewing someone this month so maybe getting another team member. They have been busy make temps into permanent workers and putting up balloons at our desks. Made older workers jealous since all they got when hired on was a job. Got a water bottle from the boss too, but it warped in the dishwasher so had to toss it. Oh well.

Brother and his new wife stopped by to show me honeymoon photos. New wife documents everything like a stenographer with a camera. I went to their destination when I was a kid so not overly impressed.

Since stopped taking college classes, student loans are coming due soon. Trying to find ways to save money. Which means good-bye cable TV and hello Netflix. Friends say Netflix is good.

My ferret Eowyn celebrates her 3rd birthday tomorrow. Have to buy a cupcake for her after work tomorrow. Oh yeah, and open a can of tuna. Ferrets and cats both love tuna. Go figure.

Well, nothing else but eat, sleep, work, and pay bills for me this month.

Saturday, September 03, 2016

Master of Weird Dreams


I am the Master of Weird Dreams. Last night I dreamt a snake bit my hand, nearly eating my arm, and then wrapped its coils around me like a boa constrictor. At first I was scared of being eaten, then relaxed when figured out the snake was not letting me go or harming me. A friend told me once when you dreams of snakes, a man is coming into your life soon. I hope this means this future man is a keeper and not another one who disappears like a magician. Recently I had a birthing dream for the 2nd time where I was giving birth to a boy and a man with pretty blue eyes wrapped up like a surgeon was patting sweat off my forehead while holding my hand. Baby was named David Lee. Last year I dreamt dancing in a wedding dress in a dark room surrounded by tables of people. Some friends hope they are premonitions of the future, but they never happen so I chalk them up to weird dreams that never come true. My deepest wish come true would be waking up every morning to the same man's face for the rest of my life, but my wishes never come true. Oh well, I will just keep waking up to a cat in my face demanding breakfast. Such as life.

Sunday, August 28, 2016

Made it to the Amusement Park


Today we made it to the amusement park that was OPEN. Kids scared of water above their knees refused to visit the water park today. Last week's sunburn didn't help either. Niece will only do the lazy river anyway. Nephew used to like water slides, but now won't go on them. We rode the new roller coaster and I thought it was awesome. We rode it a second time. Visit got cut short when clouds came in and lightening scared us into leaving the park. We got sprinkled on. Made it out before the downpour came. Didn't get to ride all we wanted, but it will be there next year.

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Adventure that wasn't


Took niece, nephew, and brother-in-law to the local amusement park to find it closed. Is anyone else thinking of National Lampoon's Vacation just now. It is closed because the great number of 14-18 year-old employees start school that day. Niece and nephew's school starts in 2 more days so this never occurred to us. So since their city pool is open until their schools start in 2 days, we go there instead. Had to listen to my nephew complain about everything to the point I told him to "Shut up, we are not going golfing today." Nephew loves golfing. Got a nice sunburn so I will be tan soon. Niece was crying because the only way we get tan is to burn first, sorry honey it's part of being pasty white. Niece and nephew ran into kids from school. Niece had to show us her bravery of dunking her head for 4 seconds. She hates dunking her head. Nephew won't go underwater so we spent much time with the preschoolers kiddie area that is knee high to us. If the water reaches their chest, they freak they will drown and cling to the pool edge. I try to tell they will not drown in chest high water, but their fear outweighs my logic. Lost my sunglasses on the water slide and a ponytail holder swimming in the deep end. Sister said she would call to see if someone turned them in to Lost and Found since I work all day and couldn't get there before they closed. Had picnic in a park with my sister included. Kids are too big for playgrounds so walked by it. After the pool we went home and chatted with my sister. Said my good-byes and went home. Well, nothing else to report.

Tuesday, August 02, 2016

Happy Dance


I filled out the human resources paperwork to become a permanent employee (I was a temporary employee) and now have to wait for benefits to kick in 90 days. Ugh, the wait.

Thursday, July 28, 2016

To the Best Friend Who Abandoned Me


Once upon a time I had a best friend. Actually had more than one in my past, but I am referring to the last one who refuses to speak to me. My last best friend was a he. He was my hero. Many would say I never meant anything to him and certainly mean nothing to him now. I beg to differ. I know things others do not.

1. He was a people pleaser so he said one thing to me, another thing to his gal friends, and yet another thing to his guy friends. So I learned to believe his actions.

2. One of his actions was tricking me into kissing him on the lips in the 6th grade. Someone once laughed how he must have been dared to do it since nobody is capable of loving me. Sorry, but we didn't tell anybody until days later when his guy friends noticed I was looking at him funny and he admitted to his guy friends he kissed me. He also knew who my first kiss was that I told nobody but him (best friend was my 2nd kiss)

3. He got suspended from school after a fist fight defending me. Some kid was pushing me against a wall and I asked him to walk with me to prevent it. The next time I was pushed into the wall, I came to school the next day to find I missed a great fist fight where my best friend shouted "Leave her alone" to the other kid. Longest three days of my life feeling guilty he got suspended because of me.

4. He was terrified to be in love. One of his girlfriends demanded sex to prove his love to her and soon after broke up with him saying he was immature. He was crushed. He cried on my shoulder and crumbled when he saw her walk by. He missed the sex so he became a "player" sleeping around (and yes, I voiced "Does AIDS mean anything to you?" because I cared about him). When he tried to get back up again and asked a girl for date, she discovered his sleeping around to slam the door in his face. He called my house at 11 PM, distressing my Mom why a boy was calling me at 11 PM. He didn't want his mother to see the flowers he had gotten for his date cause then he would have to explain why he still had them. I told him to give them to me at school. I explained to my boyfriend that I was covering his butt. It is what friends do. Afterwards, whenever he fell in love with a pair of bosoms, I suddenly couldn't be his friend anymore cause girlfriend got jealous of me. When he broke up with them, I got to be his friend again. Sure if he said he was madly in love with the whole girl and not just her bosoms, I might have been more supportive in his girlfriend choices. I made any boyfriend I had accept my best friend. There was a difference between best friend and me.

5. He often sat next to me on the first day of school, until he cheated off me to be moved away. Though, a couple teachers did sit him next to me on purpose. He did ask to cheat off me once and I ended up giving him wrong answers so he never asked again. He asked for help with his homework once and I was the first person to inform him that he wasn't stupid. I thought he was smart, but didn't always apply himself to study his books much. He could tell me all about things I have no knowledge about, like football or cars.

6. I remember our break up. He was tired of dealing with my mother who hated him (my mother didn't like anybody I picked out for superficial reasons). His mother didn't like me either. She is a different story. In the end, both tried hard to break us up and they won.

I'm sure he's happily married living a grand life without a moment's thought of me. He was a romantic sweetheart who found it easy to get women since they were constantly throwing themselves at him (I had to explain to him these girls used him as a trophy to show off to their friends), but who knows what he is like now. I on the other hand can't find another best friend who cared that much about me. I wish my former best friend well. And I will cuddle my furbabies who don't care if I'm a big dork.

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Pursuit of Happyness for Me


It has finally happened. After 6 long years in part-time and temporary job hell, and after 6 months of working so hard to learn my current temp position, my manager stopped by desk to announce they are in the process of switching me to full time employee. I told her she made my day. 6 years ago I long my good job at a airport car rental and now I'm back were I was. I'm so happy to be standing on my feet again. Get to call my Mom to tell her she can tell her friends her daughter is an official auditor. Relief.

Saturday, July 09, 2016

Best Friends Forever


Reading much about people's friends, dearest friends, and best friends make me remember my childhood and high school friends. If any communicate with me it's through social media, I read their posts and they read mine (never see each other face to face). But most won't have anything to do with me (and none of my former boyfriends who are happily married will accept a friend request either). Oh well, nothing I can do about it. I hold no grudge against them (my mother was hard to handle listening on conversations on the phone extension and intercom). I wish them well and just want them to be happy, even if I play no part in their lives. I no longer have the shyness or quirks I used to have (which I shed once I got away from parental control). It would be nice to have a best friend again, if nothing else to have someone to talk to that is not covered in fur. Ok, I'm done feeling sorry for myself. Post later.

Friday, July 08, 2016

Midsummer


Well, midsummer is here. Had a lovely 4th of July with my sister's family. Our mother spent the day doing my sister's laundry. Sister said her husband and kids can do that, but Mom needed to help her daughter. My sister had foot surgery and can't walk for a while. During fireworks, my sister stayed in the car. Mom was disappointed my sister never asked her to come over and help her like she did after her hip surgery. My sister did call me coming home from the hospital to come over to feed her kids dinner. I didn't feel like driving 30 minutes in rush hour traffic just to feel her kids who are old enough to heat their own microwave dinner, sister can order a pizza. But it turns out, our other sister staying at a nearby hotel for job training took the kids out for fast food. Got a lecture from my diabetic niece for having an unhealthy angel food cake for a midafternoon snack. Yeah, I brought this angel food cake with red, white, and blue icing to eat so I am eating it. She did have some cake for dessert after dinner. Pretty much spent the afternoon after the morning parade watching movies. Had to play Independence day for the holiday. 1959 Gidget with Sandra Dee was another (one of my favorites). Had 2 weddings in June. My niece got married (yes, I am that old) and had her daughter as flower girl (a little backwards, but happy ending is the important part). My niece looked like a princess and ceremony was 20 minutes (we all loved that). Niece had a grilled cheese bar with someone heating individual sandwiches for people. Boogied down during the dance. Danced with my little niece (I have 4 nieces) and nephew. Had breakfast with the couple the next morning to watch them open the presents and took home some cupcakes. Then after 50 years of waiting, my mother finally got rid of my brother. His bride resembled those 1870's dresses with bustles, very beautiful. I'm not sure if they are back from their Washington DC honeymoon yet. My brother dance for the very first time (as a kid I would grab his hands and twirl around, but he didn't really move). He said he wasn't going to dance, just pose for the picture. But, he said his bride insisted so he danced a few songs. I'm sure the DJ picked out their music since my brother doesn't listen to hard rock and doubt his bride does either(DJ played Firehouse's Love of a Lifetime). I again danced the night away. Earlier the bride offered her brother for me to dance with (she assured me he was single) so I danced with 1 man. The other man was my nephew half my size. I danced with my niece too. I told her I loved her before she was even born when listening to a song saying I will love you a thousand years(had explain I was excited to hear I going to be an aunt again). Again, had breakfast with the new couple opening their presents and went home. My office is expanding to add 60+ desks for incoming employees. Some start next week and some in a couple weeks. I hope this temp job becomes permanent soon and finally will get paid holidays. Sure it's nice to get holidays off, but I loose money on my paycheck. And health insurance would be nice. I have none since Medicaid cancelled it at renewal time since I make too much money. Medicaid suggested Marketplace. I can't afford their premiums with $5000 deductible for the few months until I can get work insurance (if I get hired on). Then I have to decide whether to cut the cable TV or cut the internet to pay to for it. Got student loans to pay off so strapped for cash to add more bills to my budget. But I'm sure nobody wants to hear about my pathetic troubles. So on a happy note I will end this post by saying I'm looking forward to visiting the amusement park's new roller coaster this summer.

Sunday, May 29, 2016

Summer is here

Sorry haven't been posting this spring much. Busy getting homework and working my audit job. April brought rain and more rain and more rain. Celebrated Frodo's 10th birthday. Official Senior Cat now. Worked hard on my 2 classes left until May when took the Final Exam. Final Grads: 2 A's, 1 A-, and 1 Pass (doing taxes for the public was a pass or fail class). GPA this semester: 3.94. Graduated with honors again earning Payroll Certificate and Income Tax Preparer Certificate. No more classes. My brain can't handle anymore education. Got student loans to pay back now.

Wrote a new story just to stop dreaming about it. Put that up on the blog. Attended my future sister-in-law's bridal shower. Apparently she is having four of them. One from her church, one from her hometown friends and family, one from groom's side, and one from her job. Attended niece's bridal shower and took my turn holding my great-niece. I don't think she is having quite so many showers. Groom's family was there and two of her friends were there.

Going out to the cemeteries for Memorial Day. Had to explain to my niece that some people actually go to cemeteries on Memorial Day instead of barbeques. Niece wanted to come to since she hasn't seen her grandfather's grave since the funeral before the stone was erected. But, my sister had other plans for the family. I think they are going golfing. My sister has never visited a cemetery except during funerals. I also visit my Dad's grave on Father's Day.

I got a new baby girl ferret: Luthien aged 2 months (from Lord of the Rings). My other ferrets play with her and teach her where to poop. She has taken to jumping on this in the morning when I wake up. They don't always play with her so I play with her. She is one happy ferret. Well nothing else to talk about.

Monday, May 23, 2016

New Story

Put up a new story if anyone wants to read it. http://thechameleonstory.blogspot.com/

Sunday, March 13, 2016

Happy Spring

Sorry I haven't posted for a while, very busy woman.

Started a job in Jan auditing mortgage loans to check if the bank people are applying funds correctly to the loan. Let's just say my job is easier when they do their job right. Most of the time it's "What are these bank people doing?". But if they did their job correctly all the time, I wouldn't have a job.

Started college classes again. Just finished one (8 week course) so I found time to post this. Doing taxes for poor people and slowing down now. Last week I found myself doing homework instead. Having trouble with one class so tax professor is helping me with it. End of March will stop doing taxes all together. Then will work on finishing 2 classes that end in May.

Saw my great-niece for the first time at her baptism. Missed the baby shower from the polar vortex causing weather man to say stay indoors. Eight pounds, 2 months old baby is still pretty tiny to hold. She just looked at me as if she was thinking, "Who are you?". She learned I sing and kiss cheeks. Then had to share the baby with my Mom who hadn't held her yet either. Had to capture a great-grandma and baby photo. Had a good time talking to family.

Spring weather came so put away winter decorations and brought out Easter. Put away sweaters too. I can drag them back out if temperature gets cold for a day.

Bought a baby fry fish Theia after my female Selene died. Then Theia died after a few weeks. Got another small fish called Tethys. This one is a little older than the fry, but still small compared to the adults. I name my Beta fish after Greeks gods and goddesses. Furbabies get Lord of the Rings names.

Ferrets are sad they didn't get much of a winter, they love snow and roll around in it. Didn't get enough to dig a ferret tunnel, maybe next winter. Cats like the warmer weather, more birds to watch and bugs to catch. Yes, we have bugs already. Must have awoken from their hibernation. We celebrated Faramir's 3rd birthday and Precious's 10th birthday. Precious is officially a senior cat.

Well nothing else to talk about. Post later.

Thursday, December 24, 2015

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas Everybody. Faramir and Eowyn tried to capture Santa, but Precious sprung the trap when he drank the milk. And then, Santa walked in the door to tell Faramir he heard what he did to the Easter Bunny so he was lucky to get a present. (The ferrets set a trap for the Easter Bunny and while Faramir was negotiating for more chocolate eggs, Eowyn hid the Bunny's eggs in the closet) So now the cats and ferrets can rest in excitement because I won't let them open their Santa gifts until I wake up tomorrow morning. I got a call from a temp agency about a job possibility and the company will select the people they want next week. I hope I get picked. Crossing fingers. Well, Have a great Christmas. I will be celebrating with my Mom, Aunt, and sister's family.

Friday, December 04, 2015

Christmas Letter 2015

Merry Christmas to all my family and friends. Another year of college studies and hopefully be done next spring, my brain is exhausted. Slept in on New Year’s Day since my only job was my work study for an economics professor and no school for a couple more weeks. Went to the family Christmas at Mom’s retirement home banquet room. Did my civic jury duty for a civil lawsuit (yawn). Then back to work and taking 5 accounting classes, I want to graduate as quickly as possible. Then, took Mom to a lunch at a restaurant where my Dad’s cousins were getting together. Had a lovely chat with relatives I never see anymore, thank goodness for social websites. This year we celebrated ferrets Faramir’s and Eowyn’s 2nd birthdays and cats Precious’s and Frodo’s 9th birthdays with cake and canned tuna (ferrets love frosting, cats love tuna). Lost a lady fish Canace after a few months. Lost an old man fish Apollo after 5 years, my first baby fish. Lost another male fish Dionysis I had a year. Got another baby fish named Hades and an adult male fish named Pan. My girls Selene and Artemis love watching and flirting with the new boys. Little Hades is getting big now, but still smaller than the females. Had a March ice storm that covered the city is a sheet of ice. After skating my way to the car and watching my books fly down the sidewalk, I decided to email my professors and stayed home. Had to yell at the cats who wanted to nap on my bruised legs, poor babies. Winter ended watching the ferret-sized snow tunnels melt into water.

Spring came with hosting Easter dinner and egg hunt in my courtyard. Nephew actually won the most eggs for the first time to receive a movie. Niece #4 also got a movie, but Nephew chose his reward first. Got to speak at my professor’s Personal Finance class about life insurance. I won 2nd place in a college poetry contest, I never complain about winning $50. Began my internship at amusement park as Team Leader and learned more things to do. I actually got to tell people what to do. We celebrated my cousin’s daughter’s high school graduation. Took Mom and Sister #1 to the cemeteries to notice a flag at Dad’s tombstone for the first time. Someone must have noticed I put a flag on his stone every year to do that. My spring ended with the announcement that Niece #1 was pregnant. She is a busy woman planning a wedding for 2016, returning to school to get her Master’s degree, working her teacher job, and preparing for the baby. Had to tell the world I’m going to be a great-aunt. Spring ended with the end of the work study and beginning of my internship at amusement park.

Summer was blessed with a raise at the amusement park because of a labor shortage. Who would want to work for minimum wage when they can get more at the grocery or retail stores? I guess that means the Great Recession’s surplus of workers is over. Had 3 job interviews over the summer and received 3 rejection notices. Enjoyed a day at my amusement park with my Sister #2’s family and later took Niece #4 to the water park portion since Nephew refuses to get in the water anymore (had a scare the year before). Attended my cousin’s bridal shower with my Mom and later in the day enjoyed a Tesla/Def Leppard/Styx concert at the Iowa State Fair with Nephew and Brother-in-law. Summer ended with a new job as invoice verifier at healthcare company through a temp agency and beginning another semester of classes, 3 classes this time.

Autumn celebrated Nephew’s and Niece #4’s birthdays, 11th and 12th. They are getting so big I don’t know what to buy them anymore. I celebrated my 40th birthday at a local city park by a river with big bash on a very windy day. Cousin got married in Las Vegas and came home to celebrate a Halloween-themed reception complete with fireworks. Enjoyed the Science Center’s Star Wars family night with Sister #2's family by dressing up as an Episode 7 character and won a Star Wars poster. I won’t know if my character costume is a hero or villain until the movie comes out mid-December. My temporary job ended right before Thanksgiving. I keep sending out resumes. So far got 2 interviews and 2 rejections. Thanksgiving was at my brother’s and his fiancée’s new house. We got our first snowfall the week before and ferrets love jumping around in it. The autumn ended with Niece #1 giving birth to my great-niece.

Finishing up my final exams and decorating for Christmas. We will celebrate the Family Christmas at Mom’s retirement home banquet room again. Next year will be finishing my classes in hopes of a better paying job. Last semester, I promise.

So everyone have a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.

Monday, November 16, 2015

Weekend update

Had a fun filled weekend. Went to the Science Center for Family Night that celebrated Star Wars with R2-D2 and a guy dressed as an Episode 7 villain. He came around without the costume and took our photos with a plastic stick in front of the camera to make it look like our light saber was lit up. They had contests and drawings. I won a Star Wars poster. Niece whined she wanted it, but I said no. It's going on my door when I take the scarecrow down. Niece and I dressed up as Jedi while nephew refused to wear his Darth Maul costume he wore a couple Halloweens ago. Weird kids eagerly dress up for Halloween a couple weeks ago and don't want to dress up for Star Wars. Next, my niece celebrated her 12th birthday at the Cheesecake Factory. She loved her gifts and we had chocolate cake. Got to announce my temp job is ending and the day before Thanksgiving, I will unemployed again. Not too concentrated on job hunting until after finals in a few weeks. Been sending out the occasional resume to never hear a response other than, "We received your resume and if we think you are acceptable, we will contact you." Did hear from someone I interviewed with 2 months ago. They had to tell me they hired someone qualified, but thanks for interviewing. Yeah, after 2 months, I already figured it out they didn't want me. Just keep on sending out resumes until someone calls. Signed up to take classes in the spring to gain 2 certificates and then no more classes. My brain is exploding from all this knowledge I never get to use cause I have no work experience. Niece will be having her baby in the next month so eagerly waiting for Christmas to hold the sweetheart. Very certain she/he will be born by then. I'm going to be a great-aunt. I'm going to be a great-aunt. Well, nothing else to report.

Sunday, November 01, 2015

Happy Halloween

Spending my Halloween at home doing homework and watching Halloween specials. Hocus Pocus, It's the Great Pumpkin, and Ghost Adventures tonight. Last night I watched History Channel Monsters series and History of Halloween. Niece and nephew went out with their Mom while their father is running the NYC marathon. Kids thought my Mom or I should come to their new apartment and hand out candy. Had trouble explaining apartments don't have trick or treaters. I heard kids returning in the hallway, but nobody ever knocked on my door. I do have candy since it's a good time to get it (coupons and sales). Next week will change rooms at work. Some group needs out training so moving to another building. Some will go to home office and work. Still working on invoices and figuring out where to send them when they lack information. Yep, that is what I do all day for 8 hours, 5 days a week, Stare at invoices. For the money, I don't complain how boring it is. Other coworkers have left for other jobs, but I'm not looking too hard. I am focused on my associate's degree and passing my classes. Once finals are over, I will be more aggressive looking for work. Temp job lasts until Nov 30 and classes end Dec 10. Next semester I signed up for 3 classes (discovered 4 classes working 40 hours make me flunk everything so dropped a class to lose $300 plus book rental fee). Hopefully will get a Payroll Certificate to move up the ranks. All I have is hope of a better future. Well nothing else to report. I eat, sleep, work, and do homework. Cats feel so neglected.

Saturday, September 26, 2015

The Talk with Mom

Called Mom for my monthly begging for money that has been going on for the past five years. I hate asking for money so much that often I will take a cash advance from a credit card in the middle of the month just to avoid asking more than once a month. But rent is due so have to bite the bullet.

She asked how my college classes were going and I neglected telling her that I was close to flunking them. Been doing badly since my migraines increased in frequency causing fuzzy brain. For the past 4 weeks, I have at least one (sometimes 3) each day. Went to doctor to get a med that was too strong and triggered my asthma so had to stop taking it. Found a homeopathic med online that helps with symptoms so getting better. Migraines just won't end for some reason.

So explained to Mom that I dropped a class. Didn't want to and cried myself to sleep feeling like a total failure, but now I can focus more on the other 3 classes. I'm working 40 hours a week invoice verifying so don't have a lot of time to deal with 6 hour long homework I can't understand. Don't get any money back unfortunately so out $400 and have to return the book because it is rented. 4 classes were too much for my workload, but had no idea about workload I would have when signed up for them.

So told Mom what I needed to pay my rent and 1st of the month expenses. My paychecks only cover so much. Told her about my job interview this week as a payroll clerk with a financial services company (my dream job) and hoping this is the miracle I've been waiting for. My temp job is soon coming to an end and have no idea if they want more staff since I was hired on to help with backlog that is recovering to normal workload.

Will enjoy the nice weather this weekend while working on my homework. Post later.

Saturday, September 19, 2015

Autumn update

Had a lovely summer working 6 days a week and reporting my lack of progress of finding a new job to the intern professor. Had my resume reviewed by a career councilor and the professor to get complaints how I'm not fabulous. Sorry I didn't graduate Harvard with honors, never held a management job to showcase results of my skills, and worked retail instead of an office. All temp agencies offer is customer service jobs so we no longer speak to each other. I'm trying to leave customer service. Was told by 2 temp agencies they have don't have positions for me now nor in the future. Very hard to explain to people why I'm not good enough for any job, not even entry level office jobs because I don't have 3 years experience. Had a coworker look at my resume who used to work human resources. I'm too old to work (ok, then what should I do for the next 20 years when I can collect Social Security) and my temporary jobs make me look flaky to not be able to hold on to a job. Thanks a lot, you criticize things I can not change. Did you miss the Great Recession when millions people lost their jobs and living in tents by the river? Just because someone looses a job due to a business being sold or closed does not mean they are unemployable, you self-righteous byotches who never applied for unemployment benefits that last 2-6 months.

Anyway, worked 4th of July and never saw my brother and his intended when the visited my nearby sister. Jerk. Even worse, I got discount tickets for them to go to the amusement park I work at to hear from my sister that my brother decided not to go and didn't bother to tell me. This left me with 2 nonrefundable tickets I paid for. Used them to take niece without the rest of her family to the waterpark that nephew refuses to enter (he nearly drowned last year and now fears the water). She hates water slides and scared of the wavepool so we spent the time in the lazy river and eating. After a few hours we walked towards the exit riding on whatever niece chose. This was her big birthday present and will receive a smaller present later when her cold weather birthday arrives.

Interns left to return to college and continued to find a job when my internship ended. Managed 3 interviews and 3 rejection notices saying they hired someone more qualified. Whatever. Planned out my 40th birthday bash my sister insisted I have because she saved her 40th party decorations just for me. None of my coworkers came, only 1 friend out of 5 who said they would come came, and all others that came were the family who come to the family Christmas, 16 guests in all. We ate grilled food and it was so windy I lost a set of salt and pepper shakers. Who knew ceramics flew and broke into pieces? The pink champagne birthday was so fluffy that it fell apart when tried to pick it up. Didn't take a picture of the cake cause it wasn't very pretty, just a hand full of blue flowers and a ribbon around the base that was annoying when I cut it into pieces. I didn't take any pictures party for that matter, tablecloths were whipping around too much to produce a good backdrop. Besides, not a day I really want to remember. The highlight of the day was wondering what happen to an older guest who walked to the rest room. Their legs gave out just 20 feet of the party and covered in diarrhea. Had to take them home to change clothes.

Finally, I had good news to report to my family on my birthday. A temp agency found me a temp job that didn't require an interview. Started it after my party. Called Verifying invoices for the Accounts Payable department. We temps look at invoices and make sure the vendor info, order info, and amount of invoice total is correctly placed in the system. Yes, that is what a I do all day. Very important job because the company changed computer systems and invoice codes so this created backlog that makes the vendors complain the company is not paying their debts. The managers from another babysit us and answers questions we have. And these managers change every week so I'm certain the company will not be keeping us past the assignment term. At least it's work and have to take what I can get.

Nothing else to report. Post later.

Thursday, August 06, 2015

What caused the Civil War?

So now there is a movement to remove all signs of the Confederacy from parts of the country that celebrate it as its heritage. Excuse me, what would that accomplish? The Confederacy did exist, its descendants celebrate their heroics, and lives on in museums. I actually love looking at the beauty of old plantation houses and the portraits of the owners who built them. Did the Confederacy represent racism and keeping slavery legal? I have no idea since my ancestors fought on the Union side from Iowa and Kentucky regiments. The South is not my heritage and will leave that answer to the Southern people.

But to the question of "Was slavery the cause of the Civil War?" I would say no. I have a Bachelor of Science in History to receive more information than the watered down version taught in high school history class. My professors with PhDs telling us exactly what they thought and encouraged us in our research to understand multiple points of view. British think American Revolution was a temper tantrum over taxes, while Americans think American Revolution was about freedom from tyranny. So who is right? I'll get to that later.

So what then caused the Civil War? States Rights, Slavery, Economics, or something else?

I think we have to look at the Revolutionary War to find the source of the Civil War. Reading biographies on George Washington and Thomas Jefferson I couldn't help but notice that all the reasons the South split from the Union were present during the Revolutionary War. I told you I would get this.

Grievances of the Confederacy:

1. The 10th Amendment stating any laws not designated by the US Constitution to be determined by the states, called States Rights.

Revolutionary tension: Who's in charge? In the beginning, the founding fathers were not united as we like to think. Some served out of self-interest and get rich out of this war. For many years, the colonies governed themselves from Jamestown's Don't work, Don't eat to Plymouth's Mayflower Compact to Williamsburg's House of Burgesses. The companies that founded the colonies blessed with a royal charter made their own rules how the colony should function so imagine a faraway king suddenly demanding after a war you pay taxes you can't pay because their laws prevent you from minting British coins and all taxes must be paid in British coin. In fact, the Spanish reel cut into 1/8 pieces called bits was the coin of the colonies had in their possession. Remember there were NO BANKS to trade for British coins to pay your taxes.

During the Revolutionary War, representatives fought over who should be the generals in charge of the army because they all wanted the top dog from their state. Besides George Washington, the other contenders were Thomas Johnson of Maryland (later Supreme Court justice), Charles Lee of Virginia who thought he should have been appointed top general and demanded compensation for forfeiting his British landholdings (he was later court martialed from the Continental Army), and Richard Montgomery of New York who died during the invasion of Canada. Once we became a country, Alexander Hamilton wanted a National Bank while others chimed how banks were not part of the Constitution and we should have only state banks.

Civil War settled the question that all National Laws supersede all state laws.

2. Simple economics.

Revolutionary tension: Colonial economies are exploitive in favor of the home country (British, French, Russian, whatever). Raw materials are taken from colonies and sent to the home country. Thus, manufactured goods are sent back to the colonies. That is how the colony economy works. Now, why can't all these colonials make their own manufactured goods? Simple, they are not allowed to. Iron manufacturing in Colonial America was banned so colonists had to buy British made nails, screws, keys, farming tools, and wire. Furthermore, Colonists shipping their raw materials had to pay all shipping costs, custom duties in London, unloading the goods fee, broker fees to sell it, and agent fees to shop for luxury goods like a felt hat that was banned from being produced in the colonies. Worse, what happens when your soil depleted of nutrients fails to continue to produce bumper cash crops (no fertilizers except for manure). Oh, you go into debt with promises of next year's crop will be better.

After the Revolution, industry boomed when America could make what it wanted with manufacturers from iron works to cotton mills. And mint their own coins. The Confederate States had a cash crop economy exploitive from these booming industries. In fact, when repeating rifles were invented and entered the Union army, the Confederates captured some of these supplies, but they didn't have the copper industry to make the casings needed for the cartridges necessary to utilize this weapon.

The Civil War didn't change the economics of the South, slaves who stayed simply turned into sharecroppers. Many slaves did leave for northern cities and founded black dominated neighborhoods like Harlem in NYC. Many slaves went west and became cowboys and gunslingers called Buffalo Soldiers by the Indians. When farm machinery was invented in the late 1800's, it changed the economics of the South and the sharecroppers disappeared by the mid-20th Century. The man who invented the cotton picker and revolutionized the industry was from Texas. Today, the South is more industrialized than it was 100 years ago. Can anyone say Coca-Cola or Texoco?

3. Slavery.

Revolutionary tension: First and foremost, all 13 colonies had slavery. Some founding fathers were repulsed by slave auctions and burdened by taking care of the servants while men in Britain get rich off the slave trade. But that didn't mean they were willing to free their slaves either. Americans believed slavery was pushed on them by the British government getting rich off the import duties of slaves.

After Revolutionary War: In the north, state by state emancipated its slaves and new immigrants supplied the cheap labor industry needed. Many compromises were made about extending slavery into new territories gained in the Louisiana Purchase and Mexican War. The Missouri Compromise kept slavery at the border of Missouri while Bleeding Kansas sought by popular vote if a new territory/state is slave or free.

Now, remember, white plantation owners were not the only ones who owned slaves, nor did the majority of people in the South owned slaves (10%). Indian tribes owned slaves in their territory in Oklahoma and those whites married into the tribes brought in slaves too. 2 tribes (Choctaw and Chickasaw) joined the Confederacy as 'First Battalion of Choctaw Indians' in Mississippi and also held a representative in the Confederate House of Representatives. Free Blacks also existed in the South prior to emancipation and some owned slaves as well, there was a large population of Free Blacks in New Orleans, LA and Charleston, SC. And to complete the thought, only the rich had slaves just like only the rich have servants who live in their house. I cannot imagine why lower class poor white men without shoes would march in a Confederate uniform and die to keep slavery. Slavery only became an issue when generals in the Union army taking over cities started setting the slaves free in areas they controlled. This was not universal. Plus the threat of Great Britain to join the Confederate side encouraged a political ploy from President Lincoln that all slaves in Federally held territories that rebelled against the Union be free (not the slaves in the border states). Later, at the end of the war, the push for full emancipation of slaves was made and gained. In the end, the South had to accept the end of slavery as a condition to reuniting with the Union where all Federal Laws supersede all state laws that suddenly got established. But that didn't mean they had to like it, hence Segregation and Lynching began that the Federal government didn't interfere with until the Supreme Court did in 1954 (Brown vs. Topeka, KS).

In conclusion, wiping away all evidence of a Confederacy that offends some, but admired by others doesn't erase it from history. Slavery happened and it ended for a reason. The Confederacy happened and ended for a reason.

Monday, June 22, 2015

Long time no post

Sorry for not posting for months, I've been busy. Homework, Homework, Exams, and spend time with the family. Sister was happy I had weekends off, but never found time to spend with me. Easter was my apartment since my sister didn't want to clean her house. Whatever. Had Easter egg hunt ready and niece doesn't want to do it because she is too old. Yes, let's ignore the fact that she has been pestering my sister for weeks about it. Sister recommended movies as prizes and gave me the money for it. Nephew won the contest gathering the most eggs and ready to pick one of my Rated R movies. Ah, excuse me, I presented the 2 movies my sister said to get to them and he was so excited over Transformers. Now he wants Troy or 300 or Gladiator. No and if he doesn't want it I will send it back. Sister suggests borrowing Happy Potter movies as a reward to him reading the books. I can live with that and he accepts his Transformer movie. Niece doesn't want her movie either cause they taped if off the TV. Sister explain she discarded it in her downsizing so they don't have it anymore. Niece accepts movie. I decided no more egg hunts and no more presents if it's this traumatic for them. Started working at the amusement park again. What can say, I love this job. Worked on Mother's Day so sister took Mom out to dinner. Mom protests spending so much money on her at a fancy restaurant, but they fall on deaf ears. Memorial Day took Mom and sister out to the cemeteries. We got a surprise: My Dad's tombstone had a military flag. They never did that before. Maybe someone noticed the flags I put out every year. End my work study with a bang. Last day was a career fair so took photos and uploaded them to my professor's folder on the computer. He gave me a Hawaiian torch with flowers and leis attached, then an ice cream cake. Since he did so much for me, I painted him a picture of the Des Moines River and a downtown bridge. He loved it. I sent him the photo I based my picture on. He wanted me to stay during the summer, but working 6 days a week at amusement park made that impossible. I told him I would love to come and speak to his personal finance class again. That was so much fun. I talked about life insurance to his class giving a multiple point of view and siding with any sales pitch. What to buy depends on your needs and your objectives to getting it. My main point was that life insurance was not an investment, but a gift for someone else. Signed up for fall classes to get 2 certificates to hopefully help in getting a good job. I don't have to be a millionaire to be happy, just supporting myself is enough money for me. Finished the semester with 5 A's and 1 B. So disappointing to get a B, but I tried my best. Amusement park job evolved into my internship. Have weekly reports and applying jobs. Went to the college career center to receive the same old advice I've heard a million times. Telling me to research the company doesn't help me in interviews and wear a suit impresses nobody. Went to my Dad's grave on Father's day and left a rose with a black ribbon (to copy Phantom of the Opera). Then later went to work. Meeting new people and new interns. Sorry I have to go, but need a year around, higher paying job. Though everybody got raises this year from a labor shortage caused by stores paying above minimum wage. Busy applying for jobs, but no interviews yet. I think it's kinda early since I'm not available right away. Manager keeps asking when my internship ends. I'm sure she can manage without 1 employee until the end of the season. Well outta things to talk about Post later.