Horrible Review and on Probation

Had quite a day. Decorated my desk for Christmas. Hours later I am told of every mistake since October and any more grievous errors will make me terminated. I'm on probation until further notice. I leave on vacation in 2 days. Now I don't want to go cause I need to save money for whenever I get fired. Unemployment doesn't pay if they fire for making mistakes. Apparently a client was PO'ed cause I set up a bank to a profile as I was told to do. To connect a bank to a profile the client needs to sign. We do esign through email so sent a text saying they would an email to esign their approval. Well, the client has guardians who were going to sign and nobody told me that. I just overheard the phone call and nobody corrected me to explain what exactly how I was to set up this bank account. It's like, they don't train me and then get mad when I do it wrong. I've applied for jobs for a month. Nobody will interview me. I'm 50, who is going to hire me? Then I spend the rest of day walking on glass 2nd guessing myself constantly making sure I do things correctly. I literally cried and nobody noticed. When are they planning on firing me, during my vacation, Christmas Eve, next month when it's my 1 year anniversary working there? Who knows? Come home and Roommate explodes how should cancel my vacation and stay home all week when I've been planning this trip for months. I told him if I get fired I will have to kick him out immediately. He's been studying for the driver's test to get his permit set for Jan 5. This news completely ruins his plans. Ruins my plans too cause I wanted to buy a 4 wheel drive SUV to drive in the snow and forget fixing the front bumper of my current SUV. Can't do that now. Better keep applying and hope for Christmas miracle.

I came home and got up my yard lights up. My yard is so pretty. Roommate thinks I shouldn't put up any decorations and save electricity. Yeah and he wants the thermostat at 75 cause basement is cold. That would cause a heatstroke in my sweatshirt. I allowed 73 at most. Higher than that is too much. 75 is when I put on shorts. Not good when I let the dogs outside and it's freezing cold.