Had fun sliding on the ice this morning going home. Braked for a red light and car failed to slow down so it was either hit the truck in front of me or jump the curb and hit a light pole. Light pole survived without damage that I could see. A guy across the street tried to push me out of the snow I was stuck in. He called 2 buddies who came to help push me out of the snow. I waved goodbye and came home.
Doing my credit counseling for my bankruptcy filing. It's such a good time reading how to save money. Go to library and borrow movies and books for free, and free internet access. Shop for clothes at thirft stores. Lower your electric bill by turning off lights when not using them. My favorite was my housing should be $525 per month according my in income. Yeah, a studio apartment is $800 in the city. $700 if bad neighborhood. Oh, I should get a roommate to help lower expenses. Oh, OK. I have an unemployed roommate plus his friend living here who does food delivery, and he pays for food for himself but not for my roommate and I. I should also get a part time job to increase my income. Applied all summer for part-time work and not one interview. I can't do a part time working overnights and feels like I work 6 days a week. I should try debt consolidation. I already did and emptied my IRAs trying to pay everything. Anything else you can tell me that I don't already know or actual have control over?
Roommate and his car buddy left around 6 PM while I watching the news and reading emails. In Stand By Me, Gordie says "Friends come in and out of your life like busboys in a restaurant". It's true. I think I am still in shock of him leaving suddenly right when I am preparing to turn in my bankruptcy papers. I know he feels guilty not helping me out as much as he could. He has his own problems to deal with. I need to refocus on taking care of myself and my cats, and my house. When he left, he told me he was nervous about going because his friendship with his buddy is in shambles and he is hiding drinking when roommate is not around. He has no idea what he is getting into and I might need to come get him if this doesn't work out. I said I would come get him if it didn't work out. I said earlier when he first told me he was leaving for good that if 10 years down the road and he was sleeping under a bridge suffering from hypothermia that I would come get him. I would drive to New York to come get him. I keep myself listed for family emergencies and pets are buried in the backyard so I will never leave my house until I die. He is now not taking his cat with him as he planned before. So it if it does work out, he will come back for his cat. Then he left not saying goodbye, not even a hug goodbye. He send a text message saying he will miss me. I will miss him too. It is hard for me to make friends. People think we have a weird relationship. He is a lot like what I used to be. Except I wasn't thrown away and forced to make friends with other homeless people who love meth and weed. Though I said his friends were just using him and eventually he did let go of several of them realizing I was right about that. My parents let me live with them 2 years after I graduated college and my crazy mom scares people away so I have trouble making friends. Most people are superficial and snobby and I don't meet their standards. WHo wants to be friends with someone with an overbearing, dysfunctional family.
Worked on beaded key chains and beaded pens to sell on my online shop. Hopefully I can sell something. I need to make more money since I can't find a better paying job. I decided I need to stop applying for jobs. I check the want ads every day so taking a breaking until Valentine's Day. If I get a job interview, of course I will go. Just takign a break from applying for a few weeks.
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