The Talk with Mom

Called Mom for my monthly begging for money that has been going on for the past five years. I hate asking for money so much that often I will take a cash advance from a credit card in the middle of the month just to avoid asking more than once a month. But rent is due so have to bite the bullet.

She asked how my college classes were going and I neglected telling her that I was close to flunking them. Been doing badly since my migraines increased in frequency causing fuzzy brain. For the past 4 weeks, I have at least one (sometimes 3) each day. Went to doctor to get a med that was too strong and triggered my asthma so had to stop taking it. Found a homeopathic med online that helps with symptoms so getting better. Migraines just won't end for some reason.

So explained to Mom that I dropped a class. Didn't want to and cried myself to sleep feeling like a total failure, but now I can focus more on the other 3 classes. I'm working 40 hours a week invoice verifying so don't have a lot of time to deal with 6 hour long homework I can't understand. Don't get any money back unfortunately so out $400 and have to return the book because it is rented. 4 classes were too much for my workload, but had no idea about workload I would have when signed up for them.

So told Mom what I needed to pay my rent and 1st of the month expenses. My paychecks only cover so much. Told her about my job interview this week as a payroll clerk with a financial services company (my dream job) and hoping this is the miracle I've been waiting for. My temp job is soon coming to an end and have no idea if they want more staff since I was hired on to help with backlog that is recovering to normal workload.

Will enjoy the nice weather this weekend while working on my homework. Post later.

Autumn update

Had a lovely summer working 6 days a week and reporting my lack of progress of finding a new job to the intern professor. Had my resume reviewed by a career councilor and the professor to get complaints how I'm not fabulous. Sorry I didn't graduate Harvard with honors, never held a management job to showcase results of my skills, and worked retail instead of an office. All temp agencies offer is customer service jobs so we no longer speak to each other. I'm trying to leave customer service. Was told by 2 temp agencies they have don't have positions for me now nor in the future. Very hard to explain to people why I'm not good enough for any job, not even entry level office jobs because I don't have 3 years experience. Had a coworker look at my resume who used to work human resources. I'm too old to work (ok, then what should I do for the next 20 years when I can collect Social Security) and my temporary jobs make me look flaky to not be able to hold on to a job. Thanks a lot, you criticize things I can not change. Did you miss the Great Recession when millions people lost their jobs and living in tents by the river? Just because someone looses a job due to a business being sold or closed does not mean they are unemployable, you self-righteous byotches who never applied for unemployment benefits that last 2-6 months.

Anyway, worked 4th of July and never saw my brother and his intended when the visited my nearby sister. Jerk. Even worse, I got discount tickets for them to go to the amusement park I work at to hear from my sister that my brother decided not to go and didn't bother to tell me. This left me with 2 nonrefundable tickets I paid for. Used them to take niece without the rest of her family to the waterpark that nephew refuses to enter (he nearly drowned last year and now fears the water). She hates water slides and scared of the wavepool so we spent the time in the lazy river and eating. After a few hours we walked towards the exit riding on whatever niece chose. This was her big birthday present and will receive a smaller present later when her cold weather birthday arrives.

Interns left to return to college and continued to find a job when my internship ended. Managed 3 interviews and 3 rejection notices saying they hired someone more qualified. Whatever. Planned out my 40th birthday bash my sister insisted I have because she saved her 40th party decorations just for me. None of my coworkers came, only 1 friend out of 5 who said they would come came, and all others that came were the family who come to the family Christmas, 16 guests in all. We ate grilled food and it was so windy I lost a set of salt and pepper shakers. Who knew ceramics flew and broke into pieces? The pink champagne birthday was so fluffy that it fell apart when tried to pick it up. Didn't take a picture of the cake cause it wasn't very pretty, just a hand full of blue flowers and a ribbon around the base that was annoying when I cut it into pieces. I didn't take any pictures party for that matter, tablecloths were whipping around too much to produce a good backdrop. Besides, not a day I really want to remember. The highlight of the day was wondering what happen to an older guest who walked to the rest room. Their legs gave out just 20 feet of the party and covered in diarrhea. Had to take them home to change clothes.

Finally, I had good news to report to my family on my birthday. A temp agency found me a temp job that didn't require an interview. Started it after my party. Called Verifying invoices for the Accounts Payable department. We temps look at invoices and make sure the vendor info, order info, and amount of invoice total is correctly placed in the system. Yes, that is what a I do all day. Very important job because the company changed computer systems and invoice codes so this created backlog that makes the vendors complain the company is not paying their debts. The managers from another babysit us and answers questions we have. And these managers change every week so I'm certain the company will not be keeping us past the assignment term. At least it's work and have to take what I can get.

Nothing else to report. Post later.