Return to therapy

Oh what joy is mine. Started therapy again. Had to quit last time cause ran out of money. Much has changed. Declared bankruptcy last summer, lost 2 cats to fleas, started new job, Mom died, and now trying to sell things at the farmer's market to have few sales. Oh, got a new roommate last summer dumped in my house and she got kicked out when I threw a fit about being lied to about not having a job and threatening to kicked both of them out. Now having her gone I have one less mouth to feed. Roommate wants to leave and has a plan, but execution of that plan is dismissal. Therapist says I'm a pushover saying they must leave in 30 days to back down giving more time to get a job, but no deadline. I tried to get roommate to see my therapist and he was ready to go during a crisis where he thought he and girlfriend had a STD, but his hometown friend talked him out of it. So next we talk of my stress. Everyone from family, coworkers, church people, and now therapist now all scream to throw the bum out. It stresses me out not helping me move him out. Therapist thinks 60 days is enough time for him to find a new home and/or new job. Why is it so hard? Believe me, it is hard to get hired when you have the wrong personality that doesn't fit into any workplace.

I have homework. Get together with female primary care physican and get a physical to get help with my anxiety pushing up my blood pressure. Lay down the law with roommate and kick him out at the end of next month. And finally quit my online shop that doesn't sell and focus on my stories I am editing into ebooks. Writing can be therpeutic. Yeah sure. I'm tempted to never go to therapy again. I don't like being pushed into directions I don't like going. But, I think, that is the purpose of therapy to leave your comfort zone and fix problems.