Camping trip

Friend spent the night on the couch while roommate slept on the floor. Came home from work to a mowed lawn and roommate announced he is going camping in the tent I bought him a while back and with his friend. He will be gone the next 3 days. I get to take care of the dog. Oh joy. This will be a strange weekend when I am so used to having him around. I took the dog out for a walk. The dog is starting the bark again. At most she was whine, but never bark since she came. I don't know if she feels safe to bark or hearing the neighbor dogs barking encouraged this.

This morning I let the dog out and visitor cat came out too. Got them back inside to let my cat Bilbo outside. Tried to put up the gate so dog could be in the living room without being attacked by Bilbo, but she kept knocking it down so had to put her back in the kennel. If I leave her alone in roommate's room, she poops on the floor. He returned to collect a few things holding a beer bottle. Guess they drank beer last night until they were ready to go to sleep. Nice camping trip for him.

I feel so trapped by all my debt without any way out with my roommate out of work, again. I'm tired of carrying him. I believe I need to declare bankruptcy or sell my house. 2 cats and 3 ferrets are buried in the backyard so I don't want to move. I love my house and want to stay. After visiting my old hotel, I walked across the bridge to get to my car. I so badly wanted to say to hell with it and jump off. But what will happen to my cats if I leave. What will happen to my roommate. I am so tired of praying for a miracle. I planned on going to the beach today and go for a walk tomorrow. Hopefully this weekend off will calm my nerves. I have household chores to do and groceries to buy. I don't know what to do anymore.

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