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Saturday, March 25, 2017

Another head splitting dream


I wouldn't mind these wacky dreams so much if my head didn't hurt so much when I have them. It feels like a knife is in the center of my brain, like a migraine without the vision disturbances.

This dream starts as a fight in a living room full of children. I hurl an object at my husband and he says he is leaving before this gets worse. He walks out the door and kids are crying to yell at me for making Daddy leave. I burst in tears and go to the kitchen to prepare a snack for the kids. I try to distract the kids with watching TV. I then go the Master bedroom and cry on the bed angry with myself for having a hot temper with certain subjects. I hear footsteps and tiny fingers touch my hair. I look up and a little boy is staring at me. I tell Nicky I was sorry to hug him and tell him not to worry about Daddy, he's at the bar and will come home later in the night. I pull myself together and pick up the snack plates and cups of milk around the living room to put them in the kitchen sink. We play games and later put the kids to bed. I go to bed and fall asleep. Relive the fight and suddenly wake up to feel the bed in the darkness. Husband not there so I burst into tears. Kid is in the doorway asking if I was okay. He got up to use the bathroom and heard me crying. He goes back to bed after I hug him telling him I was sad Daddy hadn't come back yet. Go back to sleep to wake up again from reliving the fight again to start wheezing from my asthma. Feel the darkness to sense my husband is there sound asleep. I put my arm around him and say I'm sorry in case he was awake. He doesn't move or make a sound so assume he was sleeping. I wake up again and hear the shower running. The shower stops and I stretch out on the bed. Husband asks if I'm awake. I call his name. He enters the room in a brown robe and lies down beside me. He says he heard me talking in my sleep. I apologize again and agree to counseling to help with our trigger issues. Apparently he was awake when I apologized the first time. We make up as couples do and go to eat breakfast with the kids who are waking up to. I kiss husband in front the children assuring them parents can fight and make up. I love this man and want to keep him.

Hope my headache goes away now.

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